September 2025

28th
5:08pm - Sometimes I wish I had been more chronically online, like the people who grew up with Homestuck, Danganronpa or Undertale. I only recently found out who Toby Fox was. The first time I came across undertale was in pony town back in 2018, when I was cosplaying as an au Sans without even knowing who he was. 10:47pm - It makes me sad to realize how awkward I am in real life and also online. I remember the day I went to my old school friends house for his birthday. I did not even talk to him. I tried but we had never been so close so it felt very strange. I asked him something about how his day was and he ignored me. Someone please end this suffer!! I feel so insecure about what I post or write. I do not know why or maybe it is because I am so bad at making sentences.

28th

5:08pm - Sometimes I wish I had been more chronically online, like the people who grew up with Homestuck, Danganronpa or Undertale. I only recently found out who Toby Fox was. The first time I came across undertale was in pony town back in 2018, when I was cosplaying as an au Sans without even knowing who he was.

10:47pm - It makes me sad to realize how awkward I am in real life and also online. I remember the day I went to my old school friends house for his birthday. I did not even talk to him. I tried but we had never been so close so it felt very strange. I asked him something about how his day was and he ignored me. Someone please end this suffer!! I feel so insecure about what I post or write. I do not know why or maybe it is because I am so bad at making sentences.

29th
11:18am -Oh lord how I dislike labels, especially the overly chronically online ones. What do you mean you are a non sharing yumeshipper? That is honestly the most STUPID thing ever. Your favorite fictional character does not belong to you. Please, go touch some grass... And then there are the LGBT labels. They are not inherently bad, I actually like the idea of having a flag to represent who you are in a specific way. But why does it feel like there is always pressure to choose one? people say things like "So you are pan" but no, it doesnt feel like that. I will love whoever I love in time, and there is no need to tag me so quickly. Ya know what I mean? 8:34pm - Maybe im being paranoid. I need someone to tell me that not everything is an indirect passive aggressive comment toward me. Well, if it is, i hope they die soon. Just kidding, cus i believe in karma...god, sorry for my bad wishes..

29th

11:18am -Oh lord how I dislike labels, especially the overly chronically online ones. What do you mean you are a non sharing yumeshipper? That is honestly the most STUPID thing ever. Your favorite fictional character does not belong to you. Please, go touch some grass... And then there are the LGBT labels. They are not inherently bad, I actually like the idea of having a flag to represent who you are in a specific way. But why does it feel like there is always pressure to choose one? people say things like "So you are pan" but no, it doesnt feel like that. I will love whoever I love in time, and there is no need to tag me so quickly. Ya know what I mean?

8:34pm - Maybe im being paranoid. I need someone to tell me that not everything is an indirect passive aggressive comment toward me. Well, if it is, i hope they die soon. Just kidding, cus i believe in karma...god, sorry for my bad wishes..

30th
12:52am - I wish I had real friends. I mean I do have friends, one or two, who are kind to me but I do not talk to them much, I just do not feel like it but I still appreciate them. Sometimes I dream about having a new group of friends in college or somewhere, idk. Weird people have always surrounded me and not the "cool" weird people, I mean really bad weird people, they were so gross and rude. It feels like a prison and my whole life has been like that and in the end they exclude me. I imagine having friends who celebrate my birthday with a surprise party, or who get sad if I dont hang out with them. I have never had that role, and I would like to be loved in that way. Is that too corny?

30th

12:52am - I wish I had real friends. I mean I do have friends, one or two, who are kind to me but I do not talk to them much, I just do not feel like it but I still appreciate them. Sometimes I dream about having a new group of friends in college or somewhere, idk. Weird people have always surrounded me and not the "cool" weird people, I mean really bad weird people, they were so gross and rude. It feels like a prison and my whole life has been like that and in the end they exclude me. I imagine having friends who celebrate my birthday with a surprise party, or who get sad if I dont hang out with them. I have never had that role, and I would like to be loved in that way. Is that too corny?

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